Beauty Smiles

some memories you hold onto to cherish

and some haunt you like a curse

but when I hold your hand in this place

its like a waltz not just any slow dance

I hear your messages

and I talk to you as I always do

calm and peaceful

and feel your body trying to relax

as the stress just melted away

so for now this is how we talk

and walk along the sand

laughing and joking

as only we can do

sometimes we hold hands

in our simple connection

of 2 people getting through life’s issues

brings me back to our slow dance

so different but yet so similar

and helped each other through

so much pain….

like walking on clouds

or skipping through the rain

I close my eyes

and see your face

in my dreamy place

just know I send you healing vibes

everything will be ok

thoughts racing

know that 1 day we will cross paths again

I can’t sleep, I can still see his smile

every time I close my eyes

memories flip past like an old movie

I hate that it was left with anger

I just thought we could talk through and resolve

some unhealed wounds

I hate that it couldn’t be more peaceful

we both have scars

I hate that I can’t fix it, nor can he

because we both handle things differently

I hate that there is no peace, just torment

I know that he are terribly unhappy

She’s not what he thought her to be

sorry sugar, she’ll never be me

I know I’m petty….. he is too

he lied and cheated without simple admission

I wish we could move past all this

so I wouldn’t have to be a bitch

I never asked for more than he was capable of giving….

“honesty no matter what!”

does he remember that part?

I’ve never been jealous, never will be

believe me, previous posts were in anger for that exact reason

writing it out is how I get it out

but he knows that or he wouldn’t still be reading

I remember when we could just look at each other & noone else existed

we had simple communication

a connection, an understanding

what happened to that?

If the situation he was in made him happy

I wouldn’t still be able to hear him speaking to me like a whisper on the wind

We promised to always remain friends

I can forgive the lying & even the cheating

but we will never be the same

I guess I was just trying to help him through

the BS your going through right now

we don’t need to be together for that

I know I helped to calm you restless spirit

and ease your soul

I truly understand parts of him

I truly wish him healing

I will always miss him and all his fun energy

I pray he finds the peace he need within

when he hears those songs

and birds singing

or the gentle breeze through trees

I’m sending him prays for serenity and tranquility

deep down he will always be a part of me

I’ll meet him the dreamy place

where we can talk and just breath