In the silence

I am humble but I’m top tier

Absolutely no replacement for me!

Did you think those chances were endless?

I went against every instinct & intuitive thought I had to support you

Ask yourself, what did you really contribute?

Scroll back through all the texts & observe I knew every move

I called it every time

Wierd as hell

Out there being slick, moving fowl

Betraying a friend on purpose & couldn’t help but play in my face

Save the “I miss & love yous!”

That wasn’t what you thought while every pump lead to a nut

I’m over here sitting in the pain of betrayal

Thinking, there is no way je could do this to me

I spent all that time thinking there was hope

All while you were lying “I’m not chasing nothing!”

But burnt my faith to the ground

In more ways than one

I’m not airing dirty laundry

I’m speaking my truth

In the silence….

Loving you continuously makes me look like a damn fool

But in truth, it takes looking like a fool to fool the fool that thinks they are fooling you

Constantly looking at new ways to help you elevate

Cheerleading like a damn clown

You drained every bit of grace I provided

And until I finally opened my eyes

To see the real you

This is who you have been all along

I’m not your battery

You’re a thief

In reality, you robbed yourself

Expecting me to consistently pour into you until I have nothing left

Chasing pebbles, when you had a diamond

Epic fumble, stink

I look back on that message full of apologies years ago

Thinking I wouldn’t remember that we have been here before

Last time you moved onto another & then spent a year in solitude

Talking about ” I realized my wrong doing then & it’s all my fault, I’m so sorry”

& like a sucker I believed you

I thought I could love all the pain out & show you a new path

One of honesty, generosity, integrity, faith, compassion & genuine unconditional love

Always saying have courage & be kind

Like a drain you took every bit of it like it was endless

All at your disposal

all my energy was there for the taking

Somewhere in your mind, gloating

She’ll never go anywhere

Just because I was silent, doesn’t mean I didn’t notice

& you snatched it up like a fat kid loves cake

You will look for me in every person you encounter in your life

Only to find that you will never find another to compare

It took loving you to finally love myself

I am a Devine angel on earth & God doesn’t play about me!

I never moved methodically to hurt you but I’m positive

Any other person you have & will ever meet will be as toxic as you

Congratulations

Play stupid games, win stupid prizes

Practically burned rubber on the street to get away from me

I need to do what I need to do by any means necessary

Not here you won’t & off you went with your lame as excuses

Couldn’t ever look me in my face

Tore out of here hanging your head in guilt

Or now that I look at it “In glory, thinking now I’m free!”

Tells me more about your character than you realize

All for what?

You burned me for someone temporarily

A pick me type of bitch that’s useless, an easy space filler with no soul or depth of character

I hope it was worth it

Grand prize, you lost me!

Or did I win because now I’m free?