Reflection

Its not ok to hurt another person when you are in pain

Its not ok to blast them even if you think you will never face them again

Your private pain should remain your private pain

I’ve written about my pain

And lashed out at someone I truly have love for

To see that hurt on his heart

& in his eyes

& it Breaks mine

Even if this is a place to write my pain

Outing his mistakes should have been private & stayed there

It takes growth to acknowledge my error

I stand strong on forgiveness

I stand strong in my truth

But my intention was NEVER

To cause him pain

Being vindictive is not in my nature

Being spiteful is also not my nature

Doing that to him was wrong

I am remorseful

I always stress that you should never do something that requires an apology

And all I can do is apologize

Its a form of growth & strength

I can’t take back some things I have said & posted

But I can Apologize from my heart & pray in hits the heart I hurtW

With true intention

Rock solid with 10 toes down

Noone deserves to be humiliated

Noone deserves having mistakes thrown in thier face

I’ve lived a long time having that done to me

I know that pain

I have removed a public platform because of this pain

While I thought in my healing it was funny

It most definitely was not

I regret that hurt I caused

There is my lesson

To attempt to apologize is my blessing

Its ok if others talk about me poorly

Thier opinion of me wasn’t my business any way

I have to reflect on my actions

Endure consequences

& let go, and I hope he does too

In order to be completely free

To err is human

To forgive is devine

I express myself to seek peace

Saying sorry and truly meaning it

Is my only solice

Saying what I mean

And meaning what I say

We Can heal

I hurt him in a way

That was cruel

I didn’t mean to

I stand on that

Still loving him

His progress

His challenges

His successes

His goals

His shining smile

His ability to conquer

Resist defeat

Hoping his heart will heal

His apologies are healing

To my heart and peace of mind

Keep riding soldier

Like I ride for you

You got this

Still loving you ❤