Life after that

Looking back on all that transpired is hard

After all yhe talks

Going over things we both did not want to happen again

I thought i was clear that being with you something i shouldn’t have to survive

In your eyes ifelt a renewal of hope & faith

The promise of truth & rejuvenation

I felt seen again

That spark of joy glimmering in your steps

I felt I had a new purpose

You shared promising ideas of future endeavors

A self confidence flowed from us both

And then the mention of cutting life short

It was like a dagger that cut through the connection

A true bond was being shattered

Friendship can be a bond as strong as a mother’s love

Those bonds can coinside

They can exist in a parallel plain

Intertwine in peace and harmony

So when the bond was broken, so were both bonds

The seed of betrayal began

With cunning manipulation

2 friends had a wedge of lies and deciept

She didn’t want us togethers

So why search through my shit

She wanted him with someone else, so he did

Why would my feelings be relevant

Looking for something to have him hate me for

I was loyal unnecessarily

Supportive to a fault

& she supported his lies & cheating and now is mad

Telling lies that I stalked him, wearing a pink hat

Supporting him being deceiving

All the while not realizing I saw his energy shift

Watching his actions predict

What would eventually reveal itself

Silly she thought the whole time I was confused

I was the money train, attempts at being used

I saw straight through all the bs and did things to make him choose

Forced to keep that toxic energy

Knowing in the end he would loose

My support, my love and my gratitude

For pulling my heart out of that shattered place

To return it back to that very same place

So as time passed and all the stories unfolded

I knew one day he would again, honorably to Take action

Reaching out with apologies

Of a hearts transgressions

With a simple apology all things can mend

Day by day I can see and feel

All the past melt away

Lifting spirits for both while hearts are healing

There will be conversations to be had

About hurt people hurting

I’m still trying to understand why

In the end what was gained by hurting me?

I know now, there is life after that….

Tbc….