indifferent

for several years

I was anything but indifferent

I was hurt

I was angry

I was insecure

I was pissed off

madder then hell

out of my mind crazy

& today

I shock myself

my x husband is engaged

I can’t say I feel anything

I’ve pondered

am I sad

am I hurt

am I jealous

I have searched

the depths of my heart

reached deep into my soul

& shockingly

I amaze myself

utterly and beautifully

I simply

can’t even raise an eyebrow

I can’t ever smirk

or raise my shoulders to shrug

don’t have an ounce

of fucks to give

not even a single one

huhhhhh

fly away

little bug