thoughts racing
know that 1 day we will cross paths again
I can’t sleep, I can still see his smile
every time I close my eyes
memories flip past like an old movie
I hate that it was left with anger
I just thought we could talk through and resolve
some unhealed wounds
I hate that it couldn’t be more peaceful
we both have scars
I hate that I can’t fix it, nor can he
because we both handle things differently
I hate that there is no peace, just torment
I know that he are terribly unhappy
She’s not what he thought her to be
sorry sugar, she’ll never be me
I know I’m petty….. he is too
he lied and cheated without simple admission
I wish we could move past all this
so I wouldn’t have to be a bitch
I never asked for more than he was capable of giving….
“honesty no matter what!”
does he remember that part?
I’ve never been jealous, never will be
believe me, previous posts were in anger for that exact reason
writing it out is how I get it out
but he knows that or he wouldn’t still be reading
I remember when we could just look at each other & noone else existed
we had simple communication
a connection, an understanding
what happened to that?
If the situation he was in made him happy
I wouldn’t still be able to hear him speaking to me like a whisper on the wind
We promised to always remain friends
I can forgive the lying & even the cheating
but we will never be the same
I guess I was just trying to help him through
the BS your going through right now
we don’t need to be together for that
I know I helped to calm you restless spirit
and ease your soul
I truly understand parts of him
I truly wish him healing
I will always miss him and all his fun energy
I pray he finds the peace he need within
when he hears those songs
and birds singing
or the gentle breeze through trees
I’m sending him prays for serenity and tranquility
deep down he will always be a part of me
I’ll meet him the dreamy place
where we can talk and just breath
Beauty Smiles 