Tears

as I splash my pain across these pages

and let tears fall from my eyes

what’s done is done

No amount of I’m sorrys will ever be enough from both sides

I just wanted it all to stop

the wondering, & the wishing is over

for no more hurting & no more pain

I will whisper a prayer of healing across the night sky

& hope it meets its destination

I finally bit the bullet & texted

I wanted to make peace or try

that’s not how it went

I needed to say what caused my pain

I had no idea what he was thinking or feeling

because he never told me & he didn’t even try

I wish I could wave a magic wand

& make all that pain go away for him

but he’s still hurt

I was tired of the lies

I truly wish the best for him in all that he does

to wish that final Happy Birthday

but he never even replied

I tried make peace & not be enemies

I left him alone until now it was for so long

I am amazed he repled… he didn’t before

I thought I could find the right words

With no anger or malice in my heart

but unfortunately my words fall short

I will think of him often & in love

with all the fond memories of all the good.. disregard negative & bad

I pray he finds peace within himself

to be the bright star

I always saw in his eyes

I still love him & always will

one day he will find peace in his heart

& a calmness in his soul

Noone can erase what has been done

but with a smile & a tear

I am at peace… that is a work in progress

nothing beats a fail but a try

truth is I never wanted to say Goodbye