The wonder

As I sit here wondering

Thinking what of this

& what if that

I watch movies & ponder

Are you happy?

Do you realize what is being missed out on

I also wonder what exactly could have been done differently

Is there anything

Or is it exactly what it is?

I will forever be at a loss

The companionship

The friendship

All the while knowing it took forever to perfect that dance

The simple things like whats in your coffee or what’s in your tea

How do you like this prepared and that

What you will eat or what you won’t

Where you’ll go or won’t

Will you watch this movie or that

Sooner or later I will find my way

This will cause me pain until it doesn’t

That is just the way it has to be

Its sad & disappointing

But 1 day it will all be ok