Kaleidoscope

How do I see things

Pretty clear is what I thought

But its not until you feel like a failure

That things become so clear

Its not like a rainbow

Or a kaleidoscope view

That makes the brain play a game

That is simply not real

Being a good person is sometimes just not enough

To gIn the respect from the ones that you try so hard to love

I give & i give

& feel like I am falling short

& then realize I am doing too much

& others become lazy

Leaving so comfortable in all that i do

My actions become so relied upon

That they don’t think or do for themselves

I know I’m extremely hard on myself

But from now on

They have to fend for themselves

Sometimes I don’t feel like I’m enough

Full well knowing I should trust my gut

1 little step at a time is all i can take

So from now on

Self love is my primary focus indefinitely