Intersections

In the last few months, I consider a lot of things in my life “intersections”

What should I do? How do I react? Or how should I react? Do I say something? Do I stay quiet?is there a hidden camera on? Is this a joke?

All the while, I here Renee!

Are you fucking kidding me? In Renee’s voice…. Renee was my Rock! I miss her with my whole heart, and always hear her when I close my eyes boom she right there.

So, with the recent events… there she is speaking with a soft voice & clear logic

Listen to your heart & never let anyone rob you of your integrity!

I was in a situation & reached out to those closest to me & not asking for help but keeping them in the loop.

I was walking through the steps, each time, gaining better insight on my responsibility and an action plan

All of the people I kept in the loop are important to me in many different ways

When you struggle, you share

This is a new thing for me but I’m making progress

Not to be mocked, not to be ridiculed, and definitely not to endure “the past” being thrown in my face

So I look at what got me here, in this situation and realize that I could have handled this better. Although I had a good plan, my priorities were a little misplaced.

I recognize and acknowledge that!

I did NOT reach out to ask for help but in fact, a source of support!

I have 5 people who truly know my heart!

1 is now my gaurdian angel

One I married, 1 is truly my sole mate, and 1 raised me and gave me most of the building blocks that shape life decisions to reflect on, and the last 1 I’m building a new connection with because he had no idea he helped create me, and that helps give me perspectives to analyze wisely.

It’s no secret that I presently feel like I’m failing.

Thinking I’m making progress with broken relationships and hearing bitter borderline vicious things still being said about me

I learning a lot about people that have such nasty things said

These people reveal themselves profoundly, at least to me

I know this had and has no reflection on who I am, but it does affect me

Where you come from and the events that take place in your life is NO excuse to be vile and less than honorable in expression

I’d like to call these “intersections”

A place that I can choose what Avenue I allow what moves forward in the relationship

While we may cross paths at times, our interactions will be limited, civil but I see you & your intent

I am, in no way referring to the 5 people that know my heart.

My children are also great sources of support in their own way.

I’m doing my best Not to put myself in this situation again.

A great Man, expressed, Always try to save for a rainy day!”

I’m a work in progress, bare with me!