“The butler”

I refuse to allow what has happened to me, define who I am …as a woman!

I know that God is watching & he knows my heart. I have sacrificed enough & with true intentions in my heart.

I am not a victim, as a matter of fact, I am victorious!

I’ve dodged bullets aimed directly at my heart that hit dead on. I am wounded & I am surviving! So, those preditorial actions were wasted because I can’t be hurt unless I allow it.

You can not loose if you understand the enemy & don’t underestimate thier abilities before they strike.

If I allowed you in my heart & my life, please know that you were given an opportunity to grow & you failed.

It’s ok to love & loose if you gave, what you could with limited resources you had.

I made you feel special at all cost, with no reservation or hesitation, you were not prepared for me!

If I moved on from you it’s because choices you made comprised my integrity.

I was a listening ear & open heart. I was not a mistake, nor were my actions.

A man is only as good as he chooses to be with the right woman at his side.

For months I said I was done! You are hurt because someone else answered my phone? What? Especially with your once a month appearances… again, what?

You were cast a role with me that you were unqualified for. The role was easy if you had not been so narsasitic.

Miss me with the victim cries. All the talking about she,she,she… newsflash, she took from you that same dose of bullshit reality you tried to feed me.

So, in essence ~You put forth effort into the next SHE, expecting her to be ME & she fed you the Karma that you deserved.

Sorry I’m not sorry! You had 6 months plus of I’m done. Why you mad partnah? You were incapable of putting in the work!

So cry to ya bruh’s & tell it as you choose… that frat boy mentally is just a mask for “do her dirty dog!” & ” Get yours partnah!” Look around bruh, they are all successful & you’re NOT! Damn…..

At the end of the day, you couldn’t man up! Let that be your lesson because God knows I was presented as a blessing! You abused that.

While I have tried & sometimes failed, know this… the lesson is not in falling, it’s how you choose to pick up the pieces & get back up!

My heart is pure, flawed & imperfect but beating well passed your chapter!

I’ve turned the page!

Until next time….