Pain

I’m trying to shed my pain by putting it into words. It’s not easy sitting here constantly evaluating what makes me tick.

It’s overwhelming trying to grasp it all. So I cry because that is my only release.

I’ve helped people and had it blow up in my face. I’ve loved and lost. I’ve made mistakes and it is all in the Hope’s that one day, moving forward putting goodness into the universe will bring me peace.

I have to be honest and real with myself, and this is no fun. Its painful, knowing at times in my life I’ve hurt people and I can never take it back. The knowledge in knowing that sometimes saying “I’m sorry!” Won’t bring someone else peace hurts. Conversely, There have been people that hurt me and they won’t accept responsibility or accountability so those things can’t be taken back or undone.

I request patience in moments or weakness, love if it’s in your heart and a hug if you can.

I go the the song “Wildflower” sung by New Birth, to sum up my emotions as a whole.

I know God’s listening & he knowns my heart. God does not create JUNK!

I am worthy, I am strong, I am patient and I am just in pain, right now!

These are my thoughts!

Until next time….