His Letter

At least now I know, you had no idea I existed….. My entire life I wondered, who you were, what you were like, where you were from & if the smallest of things were similar. Do I have your eyes & same color? Do we have the same smile & teeth? Do our hands look alike? Do we enjoy the same things?

I would like you to know that I was found, I would have never been able to find you… I had 2 names only. I was never given much information about you because you were not the one expected to match my DNA. The other day I was given the one piece of information that I always begged for, I am the product of a one night stand.

I do not judge you for that, it was the summer of 69, for heaven sake, it was a time of free spirited peace & love. I received a message that lifted my spirits, and then to find out that you didn’t even know I existed, I was disturbed but not shocked.

My emotions have been all over the place. After much discussion with my new family members, I am told that your present wife believes I want money.

Listen hear & let me be clear, if was created well before she was your wife #1, #2 you had no clue about me, #3 I was found, finally so that is obsurd, and quite frankly, so having that mind frame tells me exactly what type of person she is.

The reality is, I honestly don’t care if I ever set eyes on you & the simple fact that you would think I’d want anything from you monitarily, at my age is laughable.

I’m pretty diplomatic but I cant fathom that rational at all because it just doesn’t make sense.

I’m not perfect, I’m no angel but I am however a great person with a good heart. I try to be a better person than I was yesterday. I am NOT a vicious, vengeful or vindictive person at all, it is not in my nature. I am a realist!

I’m concerned to find out medical history because I’ve spent my entire life leaving the father’s side of questionnaires entirely blank.

I’m sure it was appalling to hear of my existence. Of course, I know that could throw a monkey wrench in your life. You are not the only one in shock. DNA doesnt lie and so here we are, trying to grasp it all.

So, for the most part, I’ve have a pretty good life. It has not always been perfect, I’m dealing with emotions I never felt, fighting battles I never knew I had and most importantly I’m healing from so many things that I have absolutely no control over.

I 100% agree with the movie “Hope Floats”… Beginnings are scary, the ending are sad, but it’s the middle that counts the most… just give hope a chance to float up!”

I prayed that you would be open hearted, open minded, patient and kind. The optimist in me, always prays the every person has a sliver of this within them! Do you?

It honestly doesn’t matter how I got here, what counts is what I do now. It’s about what I choose to do with my life and the things I do to make my life the best it can be.

Moving forward, being my best self, whether it being a mom, a sister, a daughter and a grandmother, a friend, it’s all my choice.