Change

I am uneasy getting used to change & it’s sometimes very scary. I try on a daily basis to be a better person than I was yesterday. No, I am not always successful in that process. It’s not always comfortable but sometimes a very needed process to become the best version of yourself.

There are so many things that have changed for me in the last year or 2, that have left me with no outlet or release. It’s almost suffocating thinking of where exactly to start. I’ve had changes is most all of the relationships in my life. There have been some remarkable people that have come to me, and some people that I thought would never leave, that have left.

I’m leaving out names for the sake of privacy. I choose to take this path because it’s not right to include them because quite frankly I’ve not asked their permission yet.

So, here is a little about me. I am a mother of three grown young adults (my children will always be my babies in my eyes), a spunky spastic fury baby~ Ava. In the last year, I’ve gained a beautiful Grand daughter (my most precious gift). I’ve been rebuilding myself in the best ways I can. I’m mending soured relationships, caused by myself & others while trying to be mindful, that speaking my truth can be difficult to relay as well as received. It’s still a huge work in progress. Yes ,I can see the light in some cases & its still a bit dim in others.

The sole purpose of this blog is to continue to heal myself & who knows… maybe y sharing a small part of myself, I can help someone else along the way. I’ve made many errors in my life that I just can’t erase. I know that Loving myself was the first step. I know I love myself, which is one thing but to forgive myself, that’s a completely different animal.

My sister says” keep it simple!” it was all I could do to keep from saying, “Hey, have you met me before or did you forget who you are talking to…… (lol) , nothing is ever just that simple ~ anxiety and fear can play serous tricks on you when you are doing something new & I can’t thank her enough for the little push, to have faith in myself…

Quoted from Hope Floats~ “Beginnings are scary, Endings are usually sad but it’s the middle that counts the most!” & one of my my all time favorite is: “My cup runneth over.”

Good night for now,……